Incomplete Ideas

As a person who is quite creative and wants to express herself with film and content, I can have a million ideas flooding all at once. However it is all very vague and not detailed at all. Also I am very forgetful at times so I have many incomplete ideas. Note: My inspiration seems to come from things that happen to me so if I stay at home it can be very boring and my ideas coincide and are very repetitive. Hence...

What I look like at home

What I look like filming outside

The change in my face shows you exactly what my emotions are at different points of my life. Also that I wear hipster-esque glasses.
So, my main array of incomplete ideas evolves around love and past relationships and blah. But yes I just want to address that none of my ideas have come to life this summer and I want that to happen before I start university and have little or no time whatsoever
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Anyway that is all so,

Over and Out x

Fear and Future

The title of this post basically sums up my post exam frustration and bipolar attitude to life. It has been 2 weeks since my final exam (Drama and Theatre Studies) but I can't stop thinking about getting into university. I want cry, I want to laugh and I want to shoot myself in the foot because I don't have a clue how well (or god forbid - shit) I did this year.
Last year was bloody terrible, I am counting my lucky nuggets that I was still allowed in school (praise Media Studies and praise my Media teacher being the head of sixth form). Anyway Media Studies was a godsend to me as I got a decent B, yay. What was completly and utterly terrible was English Literature and Drama and Theatre Studies which were both E's. How and why, I don't know. I guess I am only good at one subject and not even excellent in it, just good. These results put a lot of pressure on me for the following year as I decided to do Media, add on Polish A2 as I already had the AS, do both English AS and A2 and carry on with Drama even if it meant I was going to get a crappy grade. Also I did do an EPQ which was marked as an A but it came back as a U so I don't know to this day what the hell happened.
So essentially I was studying 5 subjects (although I didn't really count Polish as it is my 2nd language, but it did require a lot of work). I was doing well for once in all of them. Suddenly around April I got told that I was going to be dropped off both English subjects and I panicked. Ok, I didn't do well in many essays or any of the mocks but all I was thinking about was getting into university and I knew my drama grade wasn't going to get me there. However somehow my head of sixth form convinced my teachers, parents and everyone I couldn't do it so I left English and had 2 lessons to worry about.
I was okay with having this after a while as I had 3 exams and finished quite early but I still felt like a failure.

Currently I am writing a script about the feeling I had during this time which may relate to a lot of people so stay tuned for that. Probably a part 2 will come out of this as it is a huge topic. I've gotten a lot of inspiration from this depressing topic but hey ho..

Over and out,

The Girl From Another Planet

Stress

So hello again,

I seem to have been inactive in the past months and seeing the title of this post you can kind of guess why. Yes, Stress. Throughout these past couple of months I have experienced the worst kinds of stress and it was all leading down to school.
It all started with a break up between me and my ex-boyfriend (I know, get over it Dames) but then after a while everything was going down hill. I was failing classes, I was getting slagged off by teachers, my friends are having problems with health and life and worst of all... my camera broke and my Ipad got stolen. I know, big deal my camera broke, get a new one but IT IS A BIG DEAL TO ME I NEED FOOTAGE TO LIVE!!! (so yes, no videos D:)

I have come to the conclusion I have some voodoo from my relationship haunting me. But all I know is everything is going to get better and it has started to. I have had an offer to study at Kent with a year abroad. I am finally achieving in my subjects and I am thinking positively. But still I have no camera :(

Anyway I will continue this post about stress because it has been a big part of my Year 13 life so I think it is a good topic.

Thank you :3

Also I am finally 18 !!! woot woot

Christmas Jumper Day!!!

Today in UK it is Christmas Jumper day for the organisation called Save The Children. This charity helps beat child poverty in many countries and as its mission statement it states that 'No child is born to die'.
At my school we took part in this event, raised money and had fun... but through my pessemistic thoughts I related it to the fading of Christmas spirit but how does this day save it? Watch to see my opinion:

 

Enjoy,

Anne-Marie x

Christmas feelings

It has dawned on me that Christmas is nearly upon us. The many youtubers sharing their festive favourites, christmas tags and vlogmas' has got me thinking about how the Christmas spirit is dieing. People are trying so hard to remember what it was like to wake up on Christmas out of pure excitement and find presents under the tree and the smell of Turkey in the morning before the Christmas dinner. Unfortunately that dies after a while and you get on with your life. I'm 17 and to be honest, it is slowly fading. I haven't had normal packed presents under the tree in two years because I've had many things given to me before Christmas or things I've told my mum that it counts as a Christmas gift.
Last year I spent Christmas in Poland and it was pretty special with the snow and festivities (mulled wine hehe). Then spending New Years in Zakopane (google it), one of the most special New Years experiences where I climbed up to the top of Gubalowka (again, google) to see the fireworks from above from the whole city. But even after that, I felt somewhat sad that the year has ended and it didn't even feel great. Remembering how fun it was to stay up late all the time just to watch the 1st January come at 12:00am but now its normal because I stay up that late on a daily basis and it doesn't bother me that a new day is dawning.
We try and bring all that back with scented candles, hot chocolate, christmas jumpers and Michael Buble on repeat (me right now) but as much as we try, we are getting older.

However what should stop you from enjoying making it as festive as possible. Put the kettle on, make a hot chocolate, blast that WHAM! tune and stay cosy for the season and eat as much of that turkey and cranberry as possible. We only get this once a year and why shouldn't we anyway. Mistletoe is an excuse for a cheeky kiss from your crush and an opportunity to play Secret Santa and make someone really happy by giving. This season is full of year long benefits and fun. ENJOYYYY!!!

Possible Videos: The Christmas Tag, Post Doctor Who video and Sherlock countdown and anything that pops in my head.

Love, Anne-Marie x

I'm Back

To celebrate my coming back from China (another blog post will be up soon) I have made a reaction video to the announcement of the 12th Doctor, I hope you enjoy.

My Youtube Channel

After very much a long two weeks of no exams and complete boredom I decided to finally start vlogging, and I know its been 2 weeks so I am very guilty. I underestimated the completed slam of work to start off with as soon as I got back to school. All from university applictions, extended project qualification planning to the music video unit of Media studies. I never thought it would be this hard and yet somewhat fun.

So after a long awaited couple of weeks (sorry), here is my vlog:

I've filmed a couple of things that I may edit this weekend but I am not promising anything but you can count on me producing something soon. Maybe when I come back from China?

Thank you

(P.S- Mychildisadalek is such a cool name. Props to my friend, Kat Who ;))